A Letter to The One I Left Behind

Dearest The One I Left Behind,

     "To walk away" is the only right thing, I thought, I have at that moment.

     You are the one who made me believe in love again after I thought I could never do the same. The one whose never been afraid to mend this broken heart of mine. Someone who showed me that there is a second chance for love. That sometimes its okay to take risk and forget about your fears.

     You made me experience magical thing but just like other spell, it doesn't last long. It was ruined by sorceress bewitchment which uses my fears as its powerful tool to destruction. It slowly vanished like a smoke in the air. I have lost you to forever.

     I walked away. I have never listen to you. I distanced myself to you thinking that its a protection I give to my sanity. I just leave you being puzzled about my quick disappearance. I left you there hanging in the air. And I have hurt you.

     I was hurt too. I was hurt when I heard those unfortunately-false-information but much hurt when I discovered that those were not true. I was hurt because I never appreciated all your effort. I was hurt because I didn't think rationally and just listened to my fears. I was hurt because I have lost you to nothing. I was hurt because you were hurting.

     It wasn't easy for me to let you go thinking that we could be more. Trust me, it never did. I was broken and until now I'm still picking the pieces together, hoping we will mend soon and wishing for the best healing to both of us.

     Leaving you with no words is really hurtful, that's the selfish thing I did to you, thinking its the only way to save myself. I'm sorry that I was not strong enough to fight for you. It's time for me to finally let go. Adiós a ti mi amor!

Dear God

I

I am not perfect but you are my God.

I have put my trust in the wrong one many times.

I have been broken and became idle.

MY HEART

My heart was shattered for countless times.

It was wasted and turns out worthless.

A busted heart, so good-for-nothing.

YOU

You never get tired of picking the pieces together.

You put it back together when no one could.

You rehabilitate it always beautifully than before.

So from now on, it will be Yours.

A Poem for Someone Especial

Moving On So Slow

Years had passed me by.

I'm waiting for you my love,

For you to say goodbye.

Those days that you're gone,
I lived in misery and missed all the fun,
Because my love for you was never been done.

Now that you are here,
Please give me peace my dear,
I don't want to live my life again with tears.

Don't show me your gentle smile.
And this feeling, don't try to define,
Let's just pretend I'm fine.

In my hopeless dream at night,

I'm moving on to not loving you,

Moving on so slow.

And I wake up in the morning,
Still dancing in the rain,
So you can't see my pain.

But if you can't say goodbye,
Just wish me goodnight,
I want my dream alive.

Moving on so slow.
Moving on to not loving you,
I wish this dream come true.

Moving on so slow.
So slow back to loving you.

A man so caring, so gentle and true.